Pyris' Songs (How very original)

[Pyris]

I have a songwriting hobby, so here they are. Go ahead and ridicule or compliment as you see fit. Just remember, I don't claim to be a songwriter, so if you think they suck, you're probably right.
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Here I sit.

Here I sit, trying to drink away my sins
Ridding myself of painful memories
Burning the sadness down with my whiskey
Wishing I had one last chance
To redeem myself for another life
I screwed it all up
And this is my punishment (this is what I got)

I'm so alon/ alone and so frustrated
So very saddened/ by the thoughts I left behind
I have to drink it all away/ the only way I can take it
I've chosen my destiny/ to sit here and waste my life
So now I sit/ drowning in sorrow
No waking up/ this nightmare is real

I settle down/ ready for the next part?
Washing away my problems, one pill at a time
I've lost it all/ now I'm fading
All these medicines, none with perscriptions
I'm killing my memories
So I sit here/ waiting to die

I'll never be forgiven
So I just sit here smoking
I wish it wasn't real
Feeling heavier than before/ can't get up off the floor
Trying harder to decimate the pain
Fighting it in struggles and strains
This smoke is smothering my thoughts
Killing me one brain cell at a time

Grab a pill/ smoke a joint or two
Killing all my troubles quickly
And myself with them
Pass a beer/ this will fix me
I hope I don't remember a thing
My life screaming back at me:
Sorry bastard!/ You deserved to die!

Now here I sit/ all alone
Can't think/ one thought runs through my brain
You've ruined it all/ only you to blame
I'll probably burn for this
Here I am/ dying so slowly
Killing myself one pill at a time
Puff my sins off/ Here I go
Drinking my sorry life away!

[Pyris]

UnDeRsTaNd
(My friend Bridgette named it.)

Running in circles/ I just don't know anymore
Falling to pieces/ I just don't feel anymore
The pain is gone...
Why are you still here?
I don't want you anymore
Go Away I can't bear another day.
Please Tell me why it had to end this way? (Ch.)

Ch.: I'm suffering/ can't stand it
Burns me like the sun
I swear/ one last time
And I walk right out the door
It's painful/ It's carnage...
It hurts forever more

I don't think I'll handle:
One more kiss/ another smile
Please leave my head, before I go insane
Half way there/ can't see clearly like before
I just don't understand
I just don't understand (Ch.)

When will this torture end?
When shall I be set free?
Now I am numb from you
Can't hurt me anymore
How can I look at you
And not feel that old hunger?
I just don't understand
I just don't understand (Ch.)

Fear pours through my viens
though I can't deny what I'm seeing
Wish you hadn't done it
I see that glemmer in your eyes
That sparkle in you smile
How did you do it?/ That look in you eyes
It's exactly the way you used to..
Used to look at me (Ch)

I wish I knew you
Know you no longer
You're a stranger to me....Stay Away!
Cast me aside/ you did
I'm lost/ confused
I just don't understand
I just don't understand

[Pyris]

My Own Heart

Jealousy showers me with hate
Depression/ the fear in me a lake
I thought it would last
At least longer than it did
It hurts/ I'm crying
The pain just doesn't go away (Ch)

Ch: Now you know:
Why I fear committment
Why I have such infernal rage
Why I try to avoid you
Why relationships are such a waste
My most deadly enemy...
My own heart

Pangs of hatred consume me
If I had fangs I'd sink them deep
Within your flesh as tears seared your cheek
This is why loath that word
That one word: It burns me
Love (ch)

I've been running constantly
Nowhere to hide, there's too much doubt
I'm unique/ very different
But appearantly I hurt like everyone else
I can't stand these feelings that consume me
Now you know/ You understand me?
We are worlds apart
'Cause only I can fear...
My own heart (ch)

Breathtaking, isn't it?
How we cure so fast
I think it's the darkness inside me
It comes from within my heart
when it bleeds, anger siezes...
My world (ch)

It burns/ really
You ticked me off for the last time
It sears my flesh to look at you
I only hate you deeper
Remorse, hunger/ My anger grows steeper
And all this terror in:
My own heart (ChX2)

[Pyris]

Paper

You know: This used to be a good idea to me
Then you went and f*cked it over
Ruined everything I saw in you
It's over. We're finished. (Ch.)

Ch: F*ck you! I'm through
Now you're nothing but paper to me
You see, what I saw
Has now dissolved into make-believe
I get it. I understand you
Go hurt someone else cause I'm through with you

I remember: It doesn't seem that long ago
You decided the end of us
But I didn't wanna let you go
Now my view of you is different:
Burn in H*ll: Meet you there
Many encounters
Run through my head: Me and you....
What little we had/ But now:
It's over. We're finished (ch)

Lost in sorrow/ Drowning in my tears
I hate you, no loath you
If you diede I wouldn't she one tear
How could this happen?/ I don't care
It already did. I'm sick of all your sh*t
You can burn in H*ll, 'Cause I'm through with you (ch)

So long ago, filled with sorrow
I pined for you/ For some reason:
I wanted to be with only you
Now I realize my mistake:
Fallin' in love with a jerk like you
I hate you, no loath you
Look what's happened to me
I'm spiteful, and angry. Now
It's over. We're finished (ch)

Why can't you just let me be?
Please sorrow, darling anger,
Ravel depression away from me
I loved you, now hate you
Do you even realize what this means?
I was right to begin with
You're just paper to me
Get a lighter, watch you gleam
Burn in H*ll. I'm through with the likes of you!

Censored for pg-13-ness.

[Pyris]

Actually, my friend Bobby wrote this one....

Think of decended thoughts, Desires that yearn
Your gift in life, let your love flame burn
Shadows that fall upon your eyes
The very scorn of unspoken lies
In your mind you'll always know those that love you
In your heart you'll always know those you love too
Your smile will drive many to the abyss
So many people will stand and die for your kiss
Wiccan I am no more
Christ I shall endure
Remember always I still care
Remember always I will still be there

I think it's a poem.
He wrote this to me not too long ago....Because I don't believe in love, I couldn't tell him I loved him, so we broke up.
He left a quote at the bottom of the page, from a song.

"Do you remember on that night
I couldn't find the words to say I'm sorry
Do you recall on that night
You ripped my heart out without
Saying I love you"
-Bleeding through <Kill to Believe>

[Pyris]

Pouring Rain

can hear the steady breat
Of the rain fallin' from the starlit sky
Wish you were here with me
Hold me so close
I can feel your arms wrapped around me
Like a burning fire in a winter storm

I miss you, need you
When I close my eyes I an almost
see your smiling face
If I try real hard I can feel your tender touch
If only you were
With me in the pouring rain

I step outside, rain's falling on my shoulders
All my memories are pouring from my soul
I think of you as tears soak through my clothes
Even angels will cry to see you here with me
If only you could be
With me in the pouring rain

As the rain keeps falling
Tear begin to run down my cheeks
I can feel them, even though the rain has covered me
I can't sleep
Still need your hand enclosed in mine
You're not here and it's tearing me to shreds

As I walk, the pouring rain hits my face
Feels like daggers stabbing at my flesh
When the rain falls of my face
It feels like blood is flowing from viens
While I'm missing you, I can still see you
holding me so close while the rain cries out through the night

I look to the sky
The stars are shining to my heart
Telling me not to worry
I'll see you once again
Even though you're not here
I can feel you here
With me in the pouring rain